When she decided to get married on July 19th…she knew it was going to be hot.  Really hot.  Everyone told her that wasn’t true…but when the forecast rolled around predicting it to be the hottest day of the year…she knew she was right.  But heat indexes and humidity didn’t matter to Ellen…all that mattered was that she was marrying her best friend.  Her other half.  Dan.

 

Ellen and Dan’s day was exactly what I thought it would be.  The perfect mixture of laughter and tears…and a crazy amount of fun.  No one could look at Ellen for longer than a few seconds, especially her sisters, without tears making their way to the surface.  Not only because she made a stunning bride…but because she was right where she needed to be.  With exactly who she was supposed to be with. Him picking up where she leaves off.  Underneath their constant laughter and sense of humor…is a sweet love that is so apparent.   And so rare.

 

Ellen and Dan…I am SO happy for you guys.  I know that your life is going to be everything you’ve ever wanted it to be.  And I am so honored to have been there for the start of it.  I love you guys to death!!

 

A huge thanks to Sidne for braving the heat with me!  Couldn’t have done it without her!

And thank you to all the other wonderful vendors:

Venue/Caterer: Hyatt Lodge  |  Florist: Steubers Flowers  |  Cake: Leeza Bakery  |  Hair & Makeup: Tamara & Eleanor O’Driscoll  |  Dress: Eva’s Bridal  |  DJ: Style Matters – Ryan  

  • jacqui cole - July 29, 2013 - 8:48 am

    beautiful images love!!ReplyCancel

  • Emilia Jane - July 29, 2013 - 9:16 am

    Chicago cuff links??? LOVE. And I particularly love the vertical black and white portraits. She is just so beautiful!!ReplyCancel

  • Caili - July 29, 2013 - 9:25 am

    Excuse me, but your B&Ws are killer. Seriously. My favorite is the moment at dinner where the groom is laughing and she has the napkin up to her mouth! Amazing candid!ReplyCancel

  • Ellen Yopchick - July 29, 2013 - 3:18 pm

    Lauren! Thanks so much for everything! These pictures are above and beyond by expectations! We are so lucky to have had you there to capture the biggest moment in our lives! And you did it so perfectly!!ReplyCancel

I’ve always been one of those people.  One of those people who says no first and continues to run through all the reasons why not.  I would sit behind my computer screen and watch all the missed opportunities flash before my eyes.  Tell myself excuse after excuse why I couldn’t be out there experiencing them.  I couldn’t take the time off work.  I didn’t have the extra money.  I can’t go by myself…I won’t know anyone.  I would tell myself these things time after time and miss out.  Constantly.  And it wasn’t because I genuinely couldn’t…it was because I wasn’t letting myself.

 

Last summer I was watching all the anticipation unfold for a conference I had been dying to go to.  The What If conference.  I had some friends who had gone the year before and something inside of me just felt like I needed to be there. But of course, I didn’t do anything about it.  I told myself I didn’t have the money.  And that I couldn’t take off work.  And I felt that sting in my gut that was telling me my choice was not the right one.  But I promised myself I would go next year.

 

That same month I had posted a blog about my cancer journey.  Just an honest post about everything I had been through and later that day I got an email.  From Jen, the creator of What If, asking me to come.  She told me I was what What If was all about and she wanted me to be there.  All I had to do was get myself to Portland.  The conference was in 2 weeks.  I immediately wrote her back saying I couldn’t.  For all the same reasons…I didn’t have money to get out there.  I couldn’t ask for the time off work.  But then everyone in my life gave me a figurative slap in the face and showed me that this was happening for a reason.  That I was meant to go.  So I asked for the time off…and got it.  My family and friends chipped in and helped me buy a plane ticket and I sucked up all my fear and insecurity and flew across the country.  It was the scariest and most life changing week of my life.  Because I took a leap and didn’t care if it was right or wrong.  I just knew it was what I was meant to do.

 

(Thanks to Chris & Jen Creed for the photos)

 

My life changed because someone offered me something I wasn’t willing to offer myself.  My life changed because Jen didn’t care about the money she was losing or gaining from me…she just knew she wanted me there.   And she knew that somehow…one day….I would pay it forward.  And today is that day.  Today we are giving away a ‘Pay if Forward’ seat to the Turning Tides Retreat because I whole heartedly believe that for someone out there…this retreat is exactly what you need.  And somewhere…someone like me is sitting behind their computer running through the reasons why not.  And today we want to give someone the reason why.

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The Details:

If you think you (or someone you know) is deserving of a Pay It Forward seat to Turning Tides Retreat in Michigan – follow the steps below to enter!!!

1. You must make sure you can actually make it to Turning Tides Retreat before entering, and that you can also afford to get yourself to Chicago (where we have transportation arranged to drive people to Michigan for the retreat). (See details about the exact dates and more on the site HERE.)

2. Leave a comment on this post with a paragraph explaining why you think Turning Tides is just what you need right now.

3. Post to Twitter (and/or) Facebook saying, “I hope I get a seat to Turning Tides!” using the hashtag #turningtides and including a link to the website (http://www.turningtides.lauren-wakefield.com/).

 

Once you’ve done all of the above – we’ll add your name to the list to be considered. The winner will be announced on Monday, July 29th. Anyone who entered for the Pay It Forward seat but did not win is eligible for $100 off their seat all day Monday (should they decide to come to the retreat). Yay!

 

**The small print: You must enter by noon central time on Sunday, July 28th to qualify. You cannot have already purchased a ticket to Turning Tides. The tickets are not redeemable for cash value, nor can they be transferred to a friend (we’ll pick the next person deserving if the winner is unable to go). 

 

 

  • Nicole Lender - July 26, 2013 - 8:41 am

    Lauren, you have hit everything on the nail for me with the words you’ve written. I’ve been eyeing Christy’s posts regarding the Turning Tides Retreat and keep telling myself that I either can’t afford it or that I’m not as advanced in my business as others probably are that are attending – making up every possible excuse there is to use. I’m starting to tell myself, “If I don’t think I can do this now, WHEN will I think I can do it?” My husband was just deployed overseas last week and I made a promise to gather my ideas and work as hard as I possibly could to get my business rolling while I have the next nine months to do so with no interruptions. 😉 I know he would be proud of me for stepping out of my comfort zone and attending something like this, but more importantly, I would be proud of myself. Anyone who has the opportunity to attend this is very fortunate. Thank you for paying it forward!ReplyCancel

  • Libby - July 26, 2013 - 9:47 am

    Once I saw your post I got butterflies and visited this page about five times..leaving to go answer emails, anything and everything I could do but post “my worthiness”. I have been following the workshop since it was announced.. always looking back at the calendar (Yep, I’m free-I could do this…and quickly talking myself out of it..)

    I am “that” person. The person everyone goes to.. need to vent, need a dollar, need encouragement? I’m there. I got you! All my life, I have encouraged and been the light for others.. and yet have lost my light for myself. I am exhausted. You wouldn’t know it, I smile ALL THE TIME! but my body shows it.. I am ready to be kind to myself. I am ready to give myself the love and attention it deserves and I know this will be a long and hard journey.. but I feel that attending would be the perfect opportunity to jumpstart my life and ask some hard questions. Re-discover the love for myself and have that oooooze into my business. I am ready.. Thank you for offering this! <3ReplyCancel

  • Stacey - July 28, 2013 - 9:17 am

    I feel ashamed for even wanting to go to this, like I don’t deserve the chance, I’ve screwed up too much for the tides to turn for me. I have failed so many times. I have jumped into business unprepared, overly excited and under qualified time and time again. I made so many mistakes that I felt as if I was drowning. I couldnt understand how i let my business get so out of control, how I let myself take on so much and I had no idea what to do. I was ashamed and angry and just gave up, walked away from it all. I decided that it was time to disconnect from everyone, to reconnect with myself and my original dreams. To attempt to make right everything I did wrong. Every day I wake up and I regret so much. I regret disappointing clients, friends and my family. I regret that I didn’t plan more the first couple times around. I regret that I looked at other businesses and thought “if they can do it so effortlessly so can I”

    It’s been almost a year since I walked away from everything, and I am so afraid to fail again. I have reconnected with my original dream of photography, I have read any business book I could get my hands on, I’ve sat through months of school so I would never have excuse not to schedule a shoot, but still I can’t get over my fears. I can’t get over my embarrassment. I cant get over my guilt. I practically drop kick my creative self every time she pokes her head around just terrified that she will make everything snowball out of control again. I have so much to let go of and I don’t know how to do it. I don’t know where to start but I think this retreat could be a really good first step. A small step toward my dreams, towards forgiving myself and towards the inspiration I need to turn things around.ReplyCancel

From the very first sip of wine…I could tell Liz and Steve were my type of people.  They were comfortable and familiar.  And so easy to talk to.  The kind of people you feel like you’ve been friends with for years…when you’ve actually just met.  They have a sweetness about them that makes you instantly fall in love with them.  And makes it so easy to see why they are meant for each other.

 

As I walked back to my car after our session I couldn’t help but smile.  Between the constant laughs, the little can of Sofia that they so thoughtfully packed for me, and almost lighting ourselves on fire (OK…Liz actually did light herself on fire…but that’s neither here nor there)…I had a blast.  I drove home with the orange glow of the sunset reflecting off the city and I felt so lucky.  Lucky to do what I love.  Lucky to live in the greatest city in the world.  And lucky to know people like Liz and Steve.

 

 

 

  • Emilia Jane - July 17, 2013 - 1:25 pm

    The black and white ones with their pup are too cute and I want that red dress!!ReplyCancel

He stood waiting patiently…with his back to the world.  Waiting to stand next to his future wife…even if he couldn’t see her.  The click of her heels became louder and louder until she lightly tapped him on the shoulder.  With just a blindfold between them they held hands and soaked in the moment.  As soon as he heard her voice, tears slowly fell from behind his turquoise blindfold.  He couldn’t see what a vision she was.  How beautiful she looked from head to toe.  But it didn’t matter.  He knew he was standing in front of the only person in this world that he wanted to call his own.  The only person who he wants by his side.  His soon-to-be wife.

 

From the second I walked into the hotel room to the moment I said my last goodbye…all I felt was love.  Coming from every corner and crevice…pouring out of every smile I saw.  There was no doubt about it…Krisitn and Will were loved.  And more than that…the love they so obviously have for each other was undeniable.  Emotion was bursting at the seams and there wasn’t a person in the room that would deny that these two were whole-heartedly meant to be.

 

Kristin and Will…I feel so blessed to be able to work with couples like you.  You two have the most genuine spirits and the love you not only show to each other…but everyone around you is truly special.  I feel so honored to have been even a small part of your day…and I know you have a very long life full of happiness ahead of you.  And I can’t wait to see it unfold…

 

A huge thanks to my best friend and second shooter, Sidne, for being my sidekick.  I couldn’t have done it without her!

Another huge thanks to everyone who made this day happen:

Venue: Cafe Brauer  |  Caterer: Blue Plate  |  Videographer: Lexoria Wedding Films  |  Florist: Kloeckner Florals  |  Cake: Bittersweet  |  Band: Pete Flemming Orchestra  |  Dress: Enzoani/Peaches Boutique  |  Makeup: Shannon O’Brien  |  Hair: Dana Sokolewicz

  • Emilia Jane - July 16, 2013 - 9:18 am

    Ahh you got to work with Shannon! LOVE her <3ReplyCancel

  • Janet Wakefield - July 16, 2013 - 9:11 pm

    Wow what a georgeous couple – and I love the blindfold photos and the purple reception! Very cool!ReplyCancel

  • Christy Tyler - July 17, 2013 - 10:37 am

    Such a gorgeous wedding! Looove that shot of the little girl watching her get her dress on – shot through the arms!ReplyCancel

One of the things I’ve really been working on is following through on things.  I’m very good at this when it comes to my business and my couples.  But I fail miserably in my day to day life.  I’m that person who thinks of a thoughtful gift to get someone and then never actually puts it in the mail.  I give birthday presents months later.  I come up with little projects around the house that I want to do and never get around to finishing them.  And worst of all…I start books and don’t finish them.  Kind of like I started this blog bookclub and then never followed through.  Full disclosure…I couldn’t get into You Are Here.  Actually…I could really get into it I just couldn’t finish it.  It’s one of those books that is so full of amazing information but it’s deep…really deep…and I found myself exhausted after reading a few chapters.  I was talking to Christy about it the other day and she said it’s one of those books she picks up when she feels like she needs it and I think that is what it is perfect for.  A little bit of balance and perspective when you need it.

 

I had sort of given up on reading when my best friend, Sidne, forced me to read The Hunger Games.  I was quite resistent and then all the sudden I became obsessed.  I read all three books in a few weeks and just couldn’t get enough.  Katniss and I were besties to say the least.  Then when Gary was gone and I had a lot of free time on my hands I started reading the 50 Shades books.  Once again become insanely obsessed and sort of had an epiphany about myself and reading.  I love to read fiction.  I love that feeling of burying myself in a good book and just living there for a few weeks.  That being said…I know how important it is to read business books and ‘life’books as some may call them.  So I came up with a new idea that I am going to try my sincere hardest to follow through on.  Instead of making this bookclub business centered…I’m going to throw in fiction.  So every month or two…I will put up 2 books.  One fiction and one business.  Kind of like the fiction book is a reward for finishing the business book.  I know it sounds silly but I think it just might work!  And this will give sufficient time to get over the book hangover that comes with a really great book.

 

Here are my picks for this month:

 

Fiction: Gone Girl – I’ve heard amazing things about this book.  Plus they’re making a movie so we obviously have to read it first.

Business: The Strengthsfinder – My mom gave me this book to read before the retreat and I’m a few pages in and pretty impressed.  I think it’s going to be a good one. 🙂

 

  • Jennifer - July 12, 2013 - 8:41 am

    We just had to read Strength Finders for my masters program and take the test. It was really interesting, definitely has a few flaws but I found that the characteristic test was almost dead on! I’m hoping to read Gone Girl this summer, it has been on my list for a while!ReplyCancel